January 2, 2013

Happy New Year!

Well, I've sort of abandoned my blog as of late.  Ya know, that whole work thing has really been getting in the way.  Plus I've just been in a serious funk lately.  Anyway, I thought I should put something up here for the New Year and all so here goes.  I did pretty good with my resolutions in 2012.  I'm still at the job I started in the beginning of the year, and still liking it.  I paid off most of my credit card debt, bought two new cars, and road tripped to Disneyland (love it there!)  I've finished 18 of the items on my 101 things to do in 1001 days list.  I'm coming up on the halfway point so I really need to get cracking on these!  Again, that whole work thing...

I don't have a whole lot in mind for 2013, but I'll give it a shot.  I'm not even going to put in writing to work less cause that just wont happen.  I have a hard time saying no at work and I like the extra money too.  I'll just say I'd like to think about the consequences more before agreeing to work extra in 2013.  I like to think I can still function with no sleep, but I've proven that doesn't really happen so well.  Some of my other resolutions for 2013 are:

  • Get at least 50 things done on my 101 things list
  • Pay off all credit card debt
  • Disneyland!
  • Friends For Life!

I suppose I should have a diabetes related resolution too.  I'll just say I'd like to keep trying...keep checking my blood sugar, keep taking my insulin, keep counting my carbs, all of that fun stuff that keeps me healthy.

What do you have planned for 2013?

September 27, 2012

My D Gear

The September DSMA Blog Carnival topic is....

Post a picture of your diabetes bag or gear.

This is my basic set up at the moment.  I always use the same purse, and most of my supplies are in a makeup bag in my purse.  I always carry glucose tablets and glucagon (which I just discovered expire 6 months ago, oops!).

In the makeup bag I have my meter, test strips, lancet, insulin pens, and needles.

And don't forget about all the diabetes garbage.  My purse constantly has a layer of test strips and pen needs on the bottom.  It's never ending.

This post is my September entry in the DSMA Blog Carnival.  If you'd like to participate too, you can get all the information at http://diabetessocmed.com/2012/september-dsma-blog-carnival-2/

September 26, 2012

Wordless Wednesday

I may have overpacked...just a little.

Road Trip!

This. Is. Happening!  In two days!

I love a good road trip!  We'll be spending 3 days in Las Vegas, 3 days in Disneyland, and 4 days on the road just winging it.  I'm so exited!  I've been working like a crazy person for the last 6 months and it's high time for a vacation, plus I'll be able to cross off the 6 state road trip on my 101 things list (we'll pass through Arizona for a few minutes in case you're counting).  

Hopefully diabetes cooperates during the trip.  I'm sure I'll have some low moments in Vegas (happens every time!), and high moments while on the road, but it'll be a good time no matter what.  

I'll be tweeting, Instagram-ing, and facebook-ing along the way so stay tuned!

September 24, 2012

Diabetes Art Day

It's Diabetes Art Day!  Created by the lovely Lee Ann Thill "to encourage individuals and families with diabetes to engage in creative visual expression to communicate their experience with diabetes, connect with others, raise awareness, and promote insight and positive coping skills."  What a wonderful project!  I love anything that gives an opportunity to share what it's like to live with diabetes so I was all over this.  This was my first year participating and here's what I came up with.

Diabetes is all about numbers.  They are vast and never ending.  Highs, lows, and everything in between, and I'm in a constant struggle to keep those numbers within a very narrow range.  I don't think people without diabetes realize how much these numbers take over my mind.  No matter where I am or what I'm doing I could tell you when I last checked my blood sugar and what the result was, and when I last took insulin and how much.  Seriously.  Test me on it, I dare you.  It's always there in one way or another.

This was such a fun project.  I can't wait to see what other people have created!

Did you participate in Diabetes Art Day?  If not there's still time!  You don't have to be an "artist" or anything, just make something that's real and meaningful to you.  Go here for all the details and if you need a little inspiration, check out what others made here.  You can do it!

September 13, 2012

A Low Dream

Last night I had a low dream.  This was a first for me.

I was in a library, on the top floor, and came to a large staircase.  I had a book in my hand and started to walk down the stairs so I could check it out.  After a few steps down everything started becoming fuzzy.  I couldn't move my legs to continue down the stairs or to get back up to the top.  I couldn't get any words out to let people know that I may need help.  Black spots were appearing in my vision and all I knew was I needed some sugar or I was going to fall down this huge flight of stairs.

Then I woke up.

I was sweaty.  My heart was racing.  I tested my blood sugar and it was good.  Totally normal.  Hmm...

I'm not sure what brought this dream about, but here are some ideas I came up with.

  • My room was hot causing the sweatiness, which reminded me of being low causing the dream.
  • It was just a nightmare about a huge fear of mine.  The fear caused the sweat and heart pounding.
  • I was low and my adrenaline kicked in bringing my blood sugar up to normal by the time I woke up.

Either way it was super scary.

Have you ever had a low dream?  Did you end up really being low?

Exercise. It's not that simple.

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It's Invisible Illness Awareness Week.  A time to make your invisible illness visible.  Take some time this week to share the challenges and successes of living with your illness.  If you don't have an illness maybe ask a friend who does about what they go through every day.  It's all about spreading awareness of the effort put into managing these illnesses every day.

I want to share a little bit about exercise today.  Everyone knows exercise is good for you, even more so if you have diabetes.  It helps your heart, circulation, cholesterol, blood pressure, insulin sensitivity, pretty much everything.  I've never been really good about exercising consistently, but for the last couple weeks I've been doing Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred DVD and I think I could stick with this one.  It's a 20 minute workout that includes cardio, strength, and abs.  It's hard.  It really sucked the first few days, but I'm 12 days in now and I think I might actually like it.  The only problem is diabetes.

One thing people don't realize about diabetes is you have to start planning your exercise well ahead of time.  If my blood sugar is too high or too low I don't exercise.  There is a certain range I want it to be in and some days it takes a lot of work just to get it to that range.  Tonight I was ready to start, I tested my blood sugar and got a 274 out of nowhere.  That number is no good for exercising.  I corrected and ended up at 62, also no good for exercising.  Eventually I got there and shredded it up, but I had to wait for it...because of diabetes.

Another problem is my blood sugars seem to go crazy after I exercise, and for no apparent reason.  They say exercise is important to stay healthy with diabetes, but so far, for me, I don't know if that's true.  Exercising seems to make it impossible for my blood sugar to stay in a normal range.  It either crashes down to the 40s or skyrockets into the high 200s, or crashes and then skyrockets, or skyrockets and then crashes.  I can't figure it out. I know there are reasons and I most likely would find a trend if I logged the food I eat and insulin I take around exercise time, but that's a lot of work.  Work that people without diabetes don't have to deal with and most likely don't realize that I have to deal with.

With diabetes you don't get to just workout.  There's a lot of thought that goes into it before, during, and after.  People say you just need to exercise and eat better, but it's not that simple.